[ a strangled cry escapes from her mouth as susan finds herself encased, and for a wild moment she thinks of pushing him away - go away please just leave me alone i need to be alone oh go away ed - and she lifts her hands to do just that, because she doesn't need this and she doesn't want to cry and there are still some things that needed her attention and she has to do them all so she can't think about them, the people she's lost all so suddenly and ed, ed, why are you doing this to me? what do you want from me?
but then she grasps the sides of his shirt and she holds on tightly, afraid that if she lets go ed will disappear, and she can't, she doesn't want to be alone. her eyes sting and she blinks back her tears, but too late. too late. ]
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. [ for so many things. for everything. but a litany of apologies can't ever bring them back now. ]
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but then she grasps the sides of his shirt and she holds on tightly, afraid that if she lets go ed will disappear, and she can't, she doesn't want to be alone. her eyes sting and she blinks back her tears, but too late. too late. ]
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. [ for so many things. for everything. but a litany of apologies can't ever bring them back now. ]